Kind of interesting...

So with my last two pregnancies, I have felt that the babies were girls. It wasn't anything I consciously decided - it just felt right. When I pictured them, I saw girls in my head. I attributed this to the fact that having a girl is just easier for us, given the condition I carry - NDI. Girls can be carriers and even manifesting carriers, but neither is nearly as serious as a boy actually having the condition. So, having girls eliminates that risk. I figured that my brain was defaulting to the girl thoughts because I was kind of hoping that they would be girls, so we wouldn't have to deal with the NDI issue.

Now, we don't know what the first one was, of course, but Isabel is most definitely a girl. That said, I still didn't put much stock in my inkling.

Until now that is. I am seeing this baby as a boy. It feels the same - no real emotion behind it, just matter of fact, this is the way it is. I still kind of hope it is a girl for the same reasons I did before. Not to say I wouldn't love a boy, but I would feel very guilty if I had a little boy who was sick because of my genetics. Having a boy with NDI could be very complicated and his life could be very difficult. My hoping is purely logical. That said, hope or not, I feel quite matter-of-factly that this baby is a boy.

Time will tell, of course. I just find it all quite interesting, given how I had reasoned away my feelings with the other two pregnancies.